Confucious outside, Confuseous inside

I promised to some of my friends that my first blog will be named so. Because that is what best describes me..
I always pose to be a calm,cool guy,having full command in myself..Mostly ppl think what I do is right, what I don't do is wrong. Apparantly, I dont take freaky decisions. I always think before act.. Very few have seen me losing my cool. And about distributing funda freely about 'life, universe and everything' I am one of the most enthusiastic person.
But let me confess one thing here..Though my outer self deceives it,basically I am in a confused state. I get confused very much about myself. About what I do, what I should do, what I should not. About my profession, about my ambition, about my philosophy, about my psychology, about my friends, about my trends, about my relations, about my creations (no pun intended)-- what not..
And ya, I think before act.. And sometimes think too much - more than necessary. And too much thinking,like too much drinking -- is bad for health.. (Another funda-- if u keep track of my blog u ll get more such).
And so as a consequence I am not a stout, healthy person. My mom always complains I dont take care of my health. To be very frank I can't , in fact I think there are better , more important things to take care of. So, I stand out to be a lean(slim ;-) ??), not too high not too short, not too good looking to be turned out to be a breathtaking view (That was actually more than decent way to describe how I look. My old friends know I actually never term anything bad--not so good is my way of describing that :). So ladies, u r quite safe.. u won't fall for me :D)..

And thus goes my first blog.. Ya, incomplete it seems. But u know I always like to render a story, a picture, a poem incomplete because I think that gives my readers,my viewers a bit extra space to think.......